Catching Up

As you can see, my current post and my previous post is like a 500 years away, it has been that long.

I was so caught up with many things, I fail to blog. Anyway, I do need an output to release my emoness! haha...

So many things had happened. But I guess I will just highlight a few.

I designed pastored CD cover. haha. So here is the design.

Eureka Moments

The Law Of Clarity.

And I also volunteered to design city care website.

Here is a screenshot of the site. To view the site click here.

I came out with my name card for playfolio. Sent it for print too! Yea!

Front

Back

Wedding DVD Cover.

And I got a few offer for partnership. Which I hope is not just empty talk.

But other than that not so happening already. Anyway, got to start find more work to do.

I am starting my temporary work in Shaklee's tomorrow. Will be standing in as a designer for their designer who will be going on maternity leave for 2 months.

I think things are going too slow, I might consider taking up a full time job. Been applying for a few, but haven't got any news yet.

So many thing is so uncertain.

But one thing for sure is that, I am letting go of my baby Bimmer. Still looking for a buyer. IF you are interested, do let me know.

Here is a view of the car. Click here.

Tahan, tahan, tahan!!

I am sitting in front of my comp at 3am in the morning. Was suppose to be here helping out a friend for some issues, and it was suppose to be a favor. Now end up he is sleeping, and I am here wondering why I am even here, when I can be home sleeping.

Sigh... Sometimes I just don't know what to do and who to please anymore. I super sien now. Wake him up, but he still goes back to sleep. I understand that he is tired. But if so, then we shouldn't have plan to do it tonight.

Sigh... Is ok la. I just finish up the stuff I need to do and go to sleep la. Can I don't care already? But then again, I have promised to help. And I am a man of my word. I will surely finish what I have started. I just wish things can be done the way it is planned.

Now I will never know when it will finish, and the stuff I need to accomplish seems far fetch.

Just great Jeff!

Call me desperate!

But really, I am just wondering when can my singlehood end.

I admit is is like 3am in the morning, I am at church installing software and while I am waiting for the software to load, I am thinking about my love life.

Quite sad rite? I know.

But what to do, when you are turning 25 soon, but still got no one to call darling.

Lord, I pray! That my singlehood will end soon, send me the love of my life. I will love her and cherish her, I will make her the princess in my family. Amen!



So sweet rite? I know. But why still single ler? =P

PS: My prayer is as sincere as the picture! huhu~

Crazily Buzy!

Finally a blog after so many week of MIA.

I tell you my life is covered with work, and to kick start a company is freakingly now easy. A lot of ground work to cover, And when you get people that doesn't cooperate with you, is a obstacle in itself.

But anyway, it is still all good, when human being is out of their comfort zone, that is when they will grow! Amen!

SO I will not lose heart, and make thing happen! So many things to do, but so little time to do it.

Gambate ne!

Things on my mind

I have been thinking a lot again. Thinking about my life, I do feel a need for companionship, yet having a little dilemma on relationship. Till a point I almost feel sick and tired on even thinking of having one. Somehow I felt it was a waste of time.

I feel "yuck-ish" seeing people getting attached. Although the whole world rejoice in it. But deep down in my heart, I know is just me, I am feeling the bitterness of being single. I do hold a lot of hopes for a good relationship. But it seems all is beaten down by the disappointment of the "persuiter".

I keep telling myself to stay positive, but it does seem hard. I mean I am keeping my thoughts as bright as the sun, but yet you know a certain pinch darkness somewhere. I do feel miserable sometimes. But I am still keeping the faith!

So at the mean time, rather than sulking and beating myself up from all the emotion draining. I have decided to keep my mind on other things.

List of things I will be doing:
1. Read 1 book a month
2. Buy 1 new pair of Shoes a month.
3. Take english classes

So far that is what I can come out with. But I know I will come around soon. Maybe is just me spending too much time at home. After this should be fine.

Low Self Esteem?

I suddenly think that I am suffering from low self esteem.

I kinda been very negative towards thing spoken into my life. Kinda looking at things on a bad perspective. I shouldn't be thinking that rite?

Think positive!
Think positive!
Think positive!

Is all good! Jeff Jeff you are the best!

You know that. You are the best!!

Mix Feelings??!!

2 more days then I am leaving! I am leaving Proton and moving on.

You think I should be happy right?

Actually I don't feel at all this way. I kinda am not looking forward to my new job, at the same I am. Is like neither here nor there. But still it is time to go.

Good bye, Proton. Good bye Lotus. The next time I come back, is either I go yum cha with the guys, or I am working on a project for Proton.

I hope this is the right choice. I really hope I won't regret this.

Sigh...

I seriously damn emo now. If only I could stay. If only someone will just keep me back. I might seriously reconsider. sigh...

Feast?

Is not called a feast when no one is happy to be there.



Sigh... Is sad to see things like that happen, when it ought to be a fun thing to do. But when legalism starts to creep in, then is no longer a fun thing.

I really hope to just faster get it over with, and then forget about this ever happen.

Just fed up with all the argument about what is right and was is wrong, can't we just enjoy and be happy. Sigh...

Unmotivated

These few weeks have been a bit of a bored in the office, well not to say there is nothing to do or anything, there is plentiful to be done and accomplished. But is just that people in the department is kinda losing the edge, one after another leaving. It does affect the atmosphere of office.



I thought it wouldn't affect me, I am all tough and emotional-less, but I think it does start to slowly creep into my feeling. I do sometimes thing why didn't I ever let go of such a good offer, and stayed back, when in front of me everything seems to be not going well. But yet I strongly feel in my heart I should stay. And that is what I did.

I am trying really hard to stay calm and strong in my workplace, but is just not easy.

Do keep me in prayer. I have always think that I can go far here at Proton. I believe.

The History & Present

You know the past sometimes takes a tow on you?

Lately I have been encountering some issues with my past, people that I have not met for a very long time suddenly appearing in my life.

Just 2 weeks ago I had a primary school classmates gathering, that was like freaking 13 years ago! (Now you can tell how old I am) =P



I had to leave early that day, so this are all of them, and they were kind enough to leave me an empty seat, so I can photoshop myself in later. =P

Then I had my 1st year college pictures post up on facebook! wah seh! Old man!



I think it was just the 2nd week of my college. We took this picture, in conjunction with CNY.



Take 2



A trip to Singapore for IDN conference with my college mates.



Team building camp of my entire batch.

Then I had some more encounters of high school friends coming into my life.

and some friends who are no longer exist in my life, I pulak stumbled upon their blogs.

Well, it has kinda given me some mix feelings about the whole encounter. Hurts and happiness all come together. I didn't had much of a childhood when I was young. Most of my time in high school are spent out of class and always in the marching field with my saxophone. Yea! I join the school marching band.

Anyway, I feel sad after so many years of friendship we had gone through, people who I used to be friends with now don't even want to talk. and people who I use to dislike now turn out to be not-too-bad of a friend.

It does makes me wonder about all the relationships we had build and destroy in the past. It sad to see people you are once close with now distance away from you.

I have moved on in my life, and we all make new friends in life, and new things and dreams comes our way.

It taught me a lesson though, that is to treasure every minute we can with the people we are close to right now, never leaving regret that "what if I had done better."

I have now a bunch of happy and crazy happening people in my life.

The PROTON People!



Gary!



Michelle & Farahnina!

The YOUTHMALAYSIA People!



The best Youth's in the world!

E4 rocking cell group!



My Cell members! Love them very much!



More...



And somemore...

All the best east people!



My Subzone!

Hair & Make up ministry!



My ministry...

The crew!



All my dance crew (well, more like ex dance crew)

Special someone!



Shawn Lee! My buddy buddy!

The best of the best!...



...my best friend! Eng Kim!

Just want to say I love you all!

Low...

Suddenly so many things happen!

It just makes me feel so down under...

Hope is not Santa's punishment for me for not being a good boy this year.



=P

Happy Birthday To Me

29th Dec 2007!

Is my birthday! I have been receiving phone messages one after another wishing me Happy Birthday. That really made my day. But the saddest thing is, they don't declare public holiday on your birthday. I am doom to be at work on a Saturday.

Ever since we kick off Youth '08, our working hours have been extended to Saturdays. At 1st it was from 2.30pm - 5.30pm. Then till 7.30pm and now because of the final few moments in history to venture into a new frontier of youth lifestyle. We are working from 10am till God knows what time. I am feeling a little dreadful about working now, but well duty is a duty. I got to accomplish it.

My boss once told me, you got to see your job as something that you own, not a task, this quote has been ringing in my ear ever since. I been thinking, normally when we want to own something, won't that thing 1st interest us and the next won't it be a pleasure having that thing that you own?

Well is not that I am complaining that I don't like what I am doing, but the amount of politics and tension cause in the whole commotion of Youth '08 have been a big disturbance to the ownership of my work. People say a person's true self appear under pressure, well it is true, really scary what people can do to you to achieve what they want.

I have always thought that team work pays off, but somehow I feel I rather work alone. At least I get things done the way I want it. I know that will put more burden on myself, which that is what I am feeling right now. But after so many things happening, I just can't trust people anymore. Sigh!!

Politics! Office politic!!

For 23 years of my life, it has became a norm now, work is work! So I just got to live with it. So far only 1 colleague remember my birthday. Really feel appreciated right?

Happy Birthday Jeff.