I have been thinking a lot again. Thinking about my life, I do feel a need for companionship, yet having a little dilemma on relationship. Till a point I almost feel sick and tired on even thinking of having one. Somehow I felt it was a waste of time.
I feel "yuck-ish" seeing people getting attached. Although the whole world rejoice in it. But deep down in my heart, I know is just me, I am feeling the bitterness of being single. I do hold a lot of hopes for a good relationship. But it seems all is beaten down by the disappointment of the "persuiter".
I keep telling myself to stay positive, but it does seem hard. I mean I am keeping my thoughts as bright as the sun, but yet you know a certain pinch darkness somewhere. I do feel miserable sometimes. But I am still keeping the faith!
So at the mean time, rather than sulking and beating myself up from all the emotion draining. I have decided to keep my mind on other things.
List of things I will be doing:
1. Read 1 book a month
2. Buy 1 new pair of Shoes a month.
3. Take english classes
So far that is what I can come out with. But I know I will come around soon. Maybe is just me spending too much time at home. After this should be fine.
1 comment:
hey!! don't feel discouraged or disappointed! If u didn't get something that u asked from God, He's preparing something even better and greater for u! Be patient ya! u'll surely be entrusted with one, one day!! :D
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